I have a habit of putting an enormous amount of pressure on myself. I think I bought into the lie of having to always be strong. Can anyone relate? I think somewhere along our socialization as women we were taught to be this pillar of strength, always keeping things together and always doing and being whatever we needed to do and be…..even at the expense of ourselves. You see the world tells us, especially us single women to be so strong and independent but the word of God teaches us dependence, on God that is. Webster defines independent as being self reliant, self governing, not
looking to others for guidance, to not affiliate with a larger unit (Webster, 2012). That is not how God wants us to be. The propaganda of extreme independence has created this idea of perpetual strength that overwhelms us and prevents us from being vulnerable and dependent on God at times. We find ourselves always trying to solve our problems on our own, never asking for help, always holding things in, and sacrificing our mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual well being for everyone else. This past few weeks have been tough for me; just filled with stress, trials, and problems. I was working so hard professionally and personally, being this pillar of strength until I found myself in the emergency room with severe chest pain. I begin to ask God to remove the pain,
stress, pressure because I was overwhelmed. While I was there I thought about Paul, in 2nd Corinthians, Paul talks about dealing with torment. He talks about this thorn in his flesh that was getting on his last nerve, just constant torment. Boy can I relate to Paul, I definitely have a few thorns in my flesh right now. What is even more interesting to me is God’s response to Paul when
he came to God about this thorn, in the mist of his torment God told Paul “my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:9). WOW! That is awesome but hard to swallow for us “independent women” because weakness has never been an option. This really spoke to my spirit and challenged my way of thinking. It was like God was saying to me, stop trying to do everything in your own ability, stop trying to be so strong because my grace is sufficient, I will be your strength. Paul explains that in his weakness he is truly strong. I realized that real strength is found in the mist of my thorns, trials, and weakness because it is in those times that I position myself in complete dependence on God! The best part is that God is faithful to show up, put his super on my natural, to give me his power and ability to do, face, and deal with whatever I am confronted with. We as women have to redefine what independence and weakness means within the context of God’s word. Trials and tribulations will come; we will have thorns in our life but know in our weakest most painful moments we are strong because God’s grace is Sufficient!