Most people have heard the story of Sodom and Gomorrah’s destruction, Genesis chapter 19 describes the cities wickedness, destruction, and God’s mercy on Lot and his family. The scripture that always stood out to me was verse 26 – “But Lot’s wife looked back from behind him and
she became a pillar of salt”. I often wondered why? Why such a destructive end just for a quick glance. I have heard sermons that link her demise to disobedience which I don’t disagree with but I
always felt like it was more to it. Like many women, Lot’s wife had a hard time letting go of her past. When I counseled women one of the themes that always came up was their past hurt, disappointments, behavior, mistakes, etc. They sometimes had a difficult time looking not just ahead to their future but even right in front of them. It is amazing how many of us are so focused and consumed with our past that we miss out on our present and the future God has planned. We allow our past to distract us and dictate what’s to come instead of leaving it behind. Imagine being on the road with someone that was so focused on their rearview mirror instead of what was in front of them – talk about a scary and dangerous ride. They would be bound to crash into something and that crash could cause a lot of pain and suffering, maybe even death. However, the crash had nothing to do with their destiny but everything to do with their focus. Sometimes our past can be a good lesson but it should never be the author of our present or future. Usually when we are holding on to the past we are holding on to unforgiveness as well. Not just the unforgiveness we may have for others but the unforgiveness we have for ourselves. I have learned from my life and others that forgiving yourself is a lot harder than forgiving others. It is the shame and guilt we harbor for ourselves that keep us looking behind instead of ahead. When we finally realize that Christ has paid the price for our sins past, present, and future and the fact that he loves us regardless, we can begin to let a lot of that shame and guilt go. When we keep our eyes focused on God and his love it renders our past ineffective. When you are tempted to look behind you to the shame and guilt of your past remember Lot’s wife then remind yourself that you are a new creation in Christ, old things have passed away and behold all things are new!